SUPPOSEDLY

Today marks a special day.
The ups and downs.
The joy and sorrow.
Through thick and thin.
Today would be the day, the 7th years of us. SUPPOSEDLY.

In memory. August 23rd 2005 - October 23rd 2011.

Putera dan Kaseh Bhg 1

  Putera dan Kaseh dah lama bercinta. Empat tahun lebih dah rasanya. Putera loaded orangnya, mampu bagi hadiah mahal-mahal pada Kaseh, mampu bawak Kaseh makan dekat restoran yang grand-grand. Sepanjang percintaan, Putera dan Kaseh tak la berbeza sangat dengan pasangan yang lain, selalu jugak bergaduh, tapi cepat je berbaik semula. Diorang selesa dengan each other and boleh share apa saja cerita. Kalau orang lain tengok pun memang akan cakap diorang ni match made in heaven lah kan.

  Nak dijadikan cerita, Putera dapat offer study dekat Dublin. Demi kejar cita-cita, terpaksa la diorang ni berada dalam long distance relationship. Tapi masing-masing memang trust each other, so takde la problem sangat. Setiap kali cuti semester Putera mesti balik ke Malaysia jumpa family, dan tentunya nak jumpa Kaseh. Rindu tak payah cakap la, sebab dah lama tak jumpa.

  Kalau tengok paras rupa Kaseh, dia ni perempuan yang biasa je, tapi sweet la mukanya. Tak kurus sangat, tak gemok jugak. Just nice. Nak cakap cun sangat tak jugak, tapi gigi dia cantik tersusun, kalau dia gelak nampak attractive la. Dengan rupa paras sedemikian cukup la nak menambat hati mamat-mamat kat campus tu kan.

   Kalau cerita ni terus happily ever after, tak payah la penat-penat taip ye tak? Hahaha. So here the conflict begins. Tak seperti waktu cuti lain, kali ni Putera balik, dia menerima tamparan hebat bila Kaseh cakap nak berpisah dengan dia. Banggggg! Tersentap kejap. After all these years, macam tu je? Kaseh cakap dia dah jatuh hati pada lelaki lain. Praaaannngggg! Berkecai hati Putera dengar. Tapi nak cakap apa lagi, Kaseh tak buat-buat cerita, atau bagi alasan lain, memang dia jujur cakap dia dah suka dekat orang lain. Putera tak boleh nak cakap apa dah. Kelu lidah. Selama ni dia memang setia pada Kaseh, tak kisah lah selawa mana pun awek yang dia jumpa dekat Dublin tu, Kaseh jugak la number one.

to be continued...

Thinking of hand bouquet?

Last night was a night of fresh flowers! Girls totally love flowers! Snapping vast pictures of us holding those roses and some other gorgeous-unknown-flowers made me think of wedding hand bouquet, seriously. I've never received neither a bouquet nor a single flower all my life, and last night I went crazy over those stunning fresh flowers! I've learned some names of flowers - other than roses today, haha :D There are lilies, tulips, stephanotis, hydrangea, baby's breath, and a lot more. My favourite will be calla lilies and baby's breath! Roses are beautiful, but, too mainstream lah. Hahah! Roses for me are too common, so if I were to choose my hand bouquet, I'll go for calla lilies and baby's breath.

These are what I brought home yesterday. Lovely, isn't it?

These are calla lilies!

And here's the cutest one, baby's breath :)

Mémoire

What if one day you lost your memory? Waking up barely knowing yourself, what will happen? Forgetting the one who broke your heart might sound relieving, but forgetting the one you love will be awful. Sometimes I wish to erase my memories, but never did a person lost only his bad memories, the good ones will too.  If only I can erase the worst part of my memories, the most heartbreaking ones.

Many cases of memory loss appear to be dreadful, where you don't even know who you are, who your family are, who you are married to, or who you are having relationship with! When we experienced terrible circumstances in life, how we wish our memory to be wiped out, right? But little do we know that how depressing it will be if that wish of ours do come true, even worse than the memories itself. Because the memory that we'd love to erase are just the heartbreaking ones, isn't it?

If, and only if human are given the ability to do so, we will not learn a single thing, we will not be able to become stronger, we will not know how to cry, we will not know how to appreciate. We can never define and be ourself. On top of this, we won't be able to love ourself.

I may not be the luckiest girl on earth, I may not be the happiest one. I experienced dreadful things on my way growing up, I met several people that broke my heart, I met several people who stabbed me in the back, I cried out loud when he cheated on me, I found myself was a mess when he left me, but, were those the only memories I have? Isn't my family the best thing that happens in my life? Isn't celebrating birthdays the one I enjoy the most? Aren't my best friends I treasure the most? Believe me, sometimes those awful memories might outweigh the happy ones, but the moment you lose those happy ones, then you'll realize what awful really means.

p/s: I just watched The Vow.

Of sup ayam and 2 kilos weight gain

Malam tadi aku masak sup ayam. Memang totally ayam and kentang je la dalam sup tu. Hahaha. Untuk makan sendiri pun malas aku ni., apa nak jadi lah. Ini semua gara-gara PBL yang tak siap lagi, dan kerana Ujian Integrasi. *tiba-tiba postpone pulak kan exam. pffffft*

So harini aku panaskan je sup yang lebih tu untuk breakfast. Ya, aku kat sini breakfast pun makan heavy meal. Around pukul 8.30 pagi dah makan nasi dah. Berat tak naik lagi? Ha, ni yang nak bagitau ni, I gained 2 kilos already! Yeay!

Buat pengetahuan semua, oh, semua orang dah tau kot, aku ni memang amatlah susah nak gain weight. Kalau perempuan-perempuan di luar sana sibuk nak kuruskan badan dan ingin makan sepuasnya tanpa menghiraukan berat badan, lain pulak ceritanya dengan aku. Nak naik berat badan punya lah susah, tapi bila dah naik, cepat sungguh turunnya. Susah nak maintain. Fuhh, ramai orang nak camtu kan? Itu lah manusia, tak pernah rasa cukup dengan apa yang ada. Ok lah, alhamdulillah berat aku dah naik 2 kilo. Of course la still underweight, tapi aku tak menderita malnutrisi energi protein mahupun gizi buruk ya, teman-teman.

Jadi itu lah dia kisah sup ayam dan 2 kilos weight gain aku. Tak berkaitan pun antara dua tu sebenarnya. Bukan sup ayam yang menaikkan berat badan aku, haha :D

A New Leaf

It's Friday, but not the usual Friday, for I do not have classes today. Hooray! My theme for today is: Turning over a new leaf. Over je kau Nad nak tema bagai.

Well, mungkin ramai yang tak tahu sebelum ni aku dah pernah menulis di blog, it used to be my happy place. I stopped writing since the you-know-what-tragedy began. I was heartbroken, and was a crybaby back then. But I made it here, alive, and stronger. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stand a little taller, huh? *aku sangat kurang ketinggian padahal*

So, I decided to turn over a new leaf, though it was not easy. I started to write again. The thing is, when the relationship's over, I found myself freer than ever. I enjoyed myself, and love myself more. I guess I'm giving my heart a break, a chance to cherish the moment I never cherished before. I can't deny that some times, little things do remind me of him, but in a split second, I manage to be back on track. Haha :D

I turned 22 last May, what I wished for on that day was "O Allah, give me strength to survive all the rough days onwards". Kadang-kadang manusia memang cepat alpa, cepat lupa kepada Sang Pencipta. Tak terkecuali lah aku. Astaghfirullah. Kita hanya mampu merancang, tapi Dia lah yang menentukan. Kalau dah bukan jodoh, usaha lah kot mana pun takkan jadi jugak. I would like to share a quote with you guys,

"One day, you will meet someone that explains why it never worked out with anyone else"

And I really hope I'll meet that someone someday. Amin.

BIG :)

Okay, Korean dramas are no longer uncommon right? Most of the girls (even guys) love to watch them, and there are some Korean dramas which I would say are worth to watch! I prefer to watch comedy romance drama, rather than the melodrama. Oh, I love watching periodic drama too, the Joseon era drama. Hihihi

So, today I would like to review a new Korean drama 'Big', starring Gong Yoo from Coffee Prince and Korean beauty Lee Min Jung. This drama is still airing, I just watched the latest episodes an hour ago :D

The storyline is about a high school student from US (Shin Won Ho) who transferred to a High school in Seoul, where his homeroom teacher is played by Lee Min Jung. He met an accident with Gong Yoo and somehow their body switched. To his surprise, when Shin Won Ho's awake, he was entrapped in Gong Yoo's body, only to realize that Gong Yoo is his teacher's fiance! Here the conflicts begin. I'm impressed when Gong Yoo plays the high school kid character very well - the rebellious and selfish kid. It was hilarious :D The rookie actor - Shin Won Ho, does have a great talent as well, though I just saw him in the early few episodes.

The body, or soul-switching I guess, actually does reveal a shocking secret to Lee Min Jung. Want to know what the secret is? Do watch this drama! You can watch it here: Big

Oh, a sneak peek for you, the breathtaking wedding photo shoot!

Lee Min Jung is a very pretty bride!

Gulp.

Girls' Swimming Day!

We went swimming last Sunday, and it was awesome! Taught Iena to swim, and she's a fast learner I shall say. And guess what, we're going again, next week. Hahaha :D

Fiza paling gedik :p

Pose ala-ala majalah Mangga. Ahaks!

Sya'ban the 5th

Good morning people. It's Sya'ban the 5th. So, kenapa bangun awal sangat hari ni? Tengok Euro ke? Oh pastilah tidak. Aku kan perempuan biasa, yang bila bangun tido Euro dah habis. Hahaha :D Still, congrats to Germany, Spain, Portugal, and Italy!

Well, aku bangun sahur sebenarnya. Rasa nak puasa. *rasa bersalah semalam habiskan duit beratus ribu rupiah untuk makan.*

Woke up at 3.30 AM to cook. Huh, am I a housewife now? Nahhhhh. Ibu said that in marriage, trust and patience are the most important thing. So I guess I can't be one now, since I'm not that patient enough. Wait, apasal aku melalut sampai kahwin ni? Oh nevermind. Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan yang bakal tiba to all Muslims in the world :)

I'm okay

The moment you feel like giving up,
remember that the world doesn't revolve only around you.
There are a lot of people out there having a day as bad as yours, and even worse.
You are lucky because you just need to fight yourself, where else there are people who need to fight others.

So when the demons come to whisper, shake them out.
Whenever the storm comes and tells you that you might fall, hold your shield up.
You are more than you might think you are.
Stand still and say, I'm okay.