Mémoire

What if one day you lost your memory? Waking up barely knowing yourself, what will happen? Forgetting the one who broke your heart might sound relieving, but forgetting the one you love will be awful. Sometimes I wish to erase my memories, but never did a person lost only his bad memories, the good ones will too.  If only I can erase the worst part of my memories, the most heartbreaking ones.

Many cases of memory loss appear to be dreadful, where you don't even know who you are, who your family are, who you are married to, or who you are having relationship with! When we experienced terrible circumstances in life, how we wish our memory to be wiped out, right? But little do we know that how depressing it will be if that wish of ours do come true, even worse than the memories itself. Because the memory that we'd love to erase are just the heartbreaking ones, isn't it?

If, and only if human are given the ability to do so, we will not learn a single thing, we will not be able to become stronger, we will not know how to cry, we will not know how to appreciate. We can never define and be ourself. On top of this, we won't be able to love ourself.

I may not be the luckiest girl on earth, I may not be the happiest one. I experienced dreadful things on my way growing up, I met several people that broke my heart, I met several people who stabbed me in the back, I cried out loud when he cheated on me, I found myself was a mess when he left me, but, were those the only memories I have? Isn't my family the best thing that happens in my life? Isn't celebrating birthdays the one I enjoy the most? Aren't my best friends I treasure the most? Believe me, sometimes those awful memories might outweigh the happy ones, but the moment you lose those happy ones, then you'll realize what awful really means.

p/s: I just watched The Vow.