Thinking of hand bouquet?

Last night was a night of fresh flowers! Girls totally love flowers! Snapping vast pictures of us holding those roses and some other gorgeous-unknown-flowers made me think of wedding hand bouquet, seriously. I've never received neither a bouquet nor a single flower all my life, and last night I went crazy over those stunning fresh flowers! I've learned some names of flowers - other than roses today, haha :D There are lilies, tulips, stephanotis, hydrangea, baby's breath, and a lot more. My favourite will be calla lilies and baby's breath! Roses are beautiful, but, too mainstream lah. Hahah! Roses for me are too common, so if I were to choose my hand bouquet, I'll go for calla lilies and baby's breath.

These are what I brought home yesterday. Lovely, isn't it?

These are calla lilies!

And here's the cutest one, baby's breath :)

Mémoire

What if one day you lost your memory? Waking up barely knowing yourself, what will happen? Forgetting the one who broke your heart might sound relieving, but forgetting the one you love will be awful. Sometimes I wish to erase my memories, but never did a person lost only his bad memories, the good ones will too.  If only I can erase the worst part of my memories, the most heartbreaking ones.

Many cases of memory loss appear to be dreadful, where you don't even know who you are, who your family are, who you are married to, or who you are having relationship with! When we experienced terrible circumstances in life, how we wish our memory to be wiped out, right? But little do we know that how depressing it will be if that wish of ours do come true, even worse than the memories itself. Because the memory that we'd love to erase are just the heartbreaking ones, isn't it?

If, and only if human are given the ability to do so, we will not learn a single thing, we will not be able to become stronger, we will not know how to cry, we will not know how to appreciate. We can never define and be ourself. On top of this, we won't be able to love ourself.

I may not be the luckiest girl on earth, I may not be the happiest one. I experienced dreadful things on my way growing up, I met several people that broke my heart, I met several people who stabbed me in the back, I cried out loud when he cheated on me, I found myself was a mess when he left me, but, were those the only memories I have? Isn't my family the best thing that happens in my life? Isn't celebrating birthdays the one I enjoy the most? Aren't my best friends I treasure the most? Believe me, sometimes those awful memories might outweigh the happy ones, but the moment you lose those happy ones, then you'll realize what awful really means.

p/s: I just watched The Vow.

Of sup ayam and 2 kilos weight gain

Malam tadi aku masak sup ayam. Memang totally ayam and kentang je la dalam sup tu. Hahaha. Untuk makan sendiri pun malas aku ni., apa nak jadi lah. Ini semua gara-gara PBL yang tak siap lagi, dan kerana Ujian Integrasi. *tiba-tiba postpone pulak kan exam. pffffft*

So harini aku panaskan je sup yang lebih tu untuk breakfast. Ya, aku kat sini breakfast pun makan heavy meal. Around pukul 8.30 pagi dah makan nasi dah. Berat tak naik lagi? Ha, ni yang nak bagitau ni, I gained 2 kilos already! Yeay!

Buat pengetahuan semua, oh, semua orang dah tau kot, aku ni memang amatlah susah nak gain weight. Kalau perempuan-perempuan di luar sana sibuk nak kuruskan badan dan ingin makan sepuasnya tanpa menghiraukan berat badan, lain pulak ceritanya dengan aku. Nak naik berat badan punya lah susah, tapi bila dah naik, cepat sungguh turunnya. Susah nak maintain. Fuhh, ramai orang nak camtu kan? Itu lah manusia, tak pernah rasa cukup dengan apa yang ada. Ok lah, alhamdulillah berat aku dah naik 2 kilo. Of course la still underweight, tapi aku tak menderita malnutrisi energi protein mahupun gizi buruk ya, teman-teman.

Jadi itu lah dia kisah sup ayam dan 2 kilos weight gain aku. Tak berkaitan pun antara dua tu sebenarnya. Bukan sup ayam yang menaikkan berat badan aku, haha :D